Way back when i was in Junior high... once during my finals, i started reading this four volume epic Russian masterpiece!!! i tried to get away from it as much as i could, but i wasn't able to do so.. i mean i even ended up reading in my parents room hiding in the walking closet... by the time the exams were finished, i lost my interest in the book... Fifteen years later and i am doing the same thing, i just cant study,,, and i am reading something really stupid, i cant even tell anybody what it is. too embarrassing... and blogging, well that's the icing on the CAKE!!!!
I have also started having an existential crisis... since the last time i talked to my father.. i have come to realize that i live my life to please my parents, unlike my siblings.. Today i decided that I so want to go skiing for the long weekend, but i cant.. Because i have to go visit friends and family all over the Bay area, just because.. I have even invited people over to my place, way too many people and I donno how am i going to fit them there? i have to take my baby cousin to see a movie.. because i want to be the COOL older cousin who they come to when they want to install an Instant messengers despite their parents disapproval. I never had a cool older cousin, they never paid attention to me. I donno why i am trying to make it up to my younger cousins??
I donno why i have to go to south Bay for the Saturday dinner at some Mexican restaurant ( i dont like Mexican food, reminds me of ABgoosht) to sort things out between FRIENDS!! i dont even care, i mean things will sort out in a month or two anyways..
I donno why i dont have to go skiing, and instead hang out with the people who are coming up from SO-Cal and go to Napa Valley with them?? They have car, they can drive why the heck i should take them there??
I donno why i have to go and have dinner with my lovely yet extremely opinionated Aunt (you think i am opinionated wait till you see HER!!!) and explain to her why my sister makes the choices that she makes? I donno, why doesnt she ask her?
i dont even know why i come here and Whine?? who cares? i dont... in real life at the best i am indifferent to pretty much everything....
i am not even sad, depressed or anything.. i am extremely happy and content with my life. And i am even able to direct my anger at the right people, and not hurt the people that i care about for no good reason..
i just read stupid things during my exams.. but that's very normal of me, i am just a weird person... who does weird things!!!
I have also started having an existential crisis... since the last time i talked to my father.. i have come to realize that i live my life to please my parents, unlike my siblings.. Today i decided that I so want to go skiing for the long weekend, but i cant.. Because i have to go visit friends and family all over the Bay area, just because.. I have even invited people over to my place, way too many people and I donno how am i going to fit them there? i have to take my baby cousin to see a movie.. because i want to be the COOL older cousin who they come to when they want to install an Instant messengers despite their parents disapproval. I never had a cool older cousin, they never paid attention to me. I donno why i am trying to make it up to my younger cousins??
I donno why i have to go to south Bay for the Saturday dinner at some Mexican restaurant ( i dont like Mexican food, reminds me of ABgoosht) to sort things out between FRIENDS!! i dont even care, i mean things will sort out in a month or two anyways..
I donno why i dont have to go skiing, and instead hang out with the people who are coming up from SO-Cal and go to Napa Valley with them?? They have car, they can drive why the heck i should take them there??
I donno why i have to go and have dinner with my lovely yet extremely opinionated Aunt (you think i am opinionated wait till you see HER!!!) and explain to her why my sister makes the choices that she makes? I donno, why doesnt she ask her?
i dont even know why i come here and Whine?? who cares? i dont... in real life at the best i am indifferent to pretty much everything....
i am not even sad, depressed or anything.. i am extremely happy and content with my life. And i am even able to direct my anger at the right people, and not hurt the people that i care about for no good reason..
i just read stupid things during my exams.. but that's very normal of me, i am just a weird person... who does weird things!!!
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Abgoosht!
I hated Abgoosht when I was little, but these days, for a home made abgoosht, I'll kill for it.
so weird is the new normal. right?
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