October Surprise...
Wednesday, December 08, 20101.We came to this world to pay for the vices of our fathers, that is the only truth of my generation...
2. I am not as brutally honest as I used to be even with myself, that is why I do not write much. I am in hiding
3.Sometimes I work so many days in a row, 7 ,8 or 9 ? ( who is counting) leaving the work late and coming back early the next day staying in a hotel for couple of days. In those stretches you reach a level of fatigue that no one can fathom. Tired to the point of nausea, tired to the point of uncontrollable crying, tired to point that all you do is staring at the wall your whole day off with no desire to socialize with others or do anything else for that matter.
My dad said the other day when he was a recent grad, he would do up to 16 surgeries per day to the point of numbness. He said he would get so tired that he could not even go to sleep, he had to smoke a pack of cigarettes so his brain his brain stop functioning all together and then he could some rest.
4. I like my current surreal life better than any life that I have ever lived. I like the detachment, the limbo and the too many secrets that burn me down at times. I am at the verge of reaching the point of indifference
