You know what breaks a heart, its not cheating , backstabbing, lies , fraud , grief or loss....
No I have been through it all and have never felt it up until now....
Where I am just sitting idle and watching that the very people who have been there for me when I was down and about and needed help came to my rescue, are suffering and me not being able to do a thing about it ....
What can I do but to watch them going down and lose it all, and all I can do is paying for having Thai food delivered to their place, in a show of solidarity and love?
I have always been the one who would come in to the rescue when everything and everyone else failed, I was always able to find a way out to help people get through the worst. And now there is not a single thing that I could do, last night I called a high school friend crying I told her that I need some faith in my life and its really hard to come by and she responded :" We are people of science , faith does not work for us, you need to make an equation out of it and try to solve it."
But how do I make an equation out of uncertainty and unknown ?
For the first time in my life I do not where to go and have lost control over life and it is breaking my heart ......
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